back to tti was great still! many changes again.
and i'm sad this time round cos of a sad news that i've heard.
seriously, when i heard it, my whole heart just sank like titanic.
i just like the old times back then
changes do occur yeah?
like i said, i hate changes the most!!!


she's leaving and she's leaving too and she's leaving soon (i guess). it wont be the same anymore. only past memories remains. how i wish everything could remain at how it used to be.


i guess i was so affected by the sudden news that i stuttered when i replied her. she's nice and she will always remain nice. i'm just so sad and how i hope that time can stop right now. or at least, stop next week. now, i dont even dare to talk to you, i dont even dare to see you, i dont even dare to shout your name, i dont even dare to greet you every morning like i used to.


it will all be gone soon. i hope we still stay in touch. i hope i still look forward to semester vacations. i enjoyed working with you and helping you. you have made me look forward to every vacations. and i felt so cared for. i'm so sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my heart is really heavy now. nobody understands this. nobody understands my feeling. nobody understands my sadness...............





and finally, it all over. 3 years in poly have fly pass just like that. huge stress gone off my shoulders. was super happy on the last day at ocbc thou i only started liking it on the last week of my attachment. how pathetic can this be? but thanks to all of them for their patience and friendliness! they even got me a necklace and the new intern got me chocs! how cool! great time with bin and the rest of the dbi people over at ocbc.


guess what? i'm back to tti again this coming week as a temp staff. seriously when they called me, i was rather reluctant cos i already had plans all the way till mid march. but then again, i thought of how nice they were and that since they needed help, i should help them out. and guess what, they put my contract tentatively till june. seriously, i duno whether i should pray that i get into uni or pray that i get rejected. i'm too confused at the moment to even know what should be my next step.


16th feb was my last day at starhub. it gave everyone a shocked including team leader(shannon) that was on duty. he thought i was just teasing and lying cos i was giggling when i said that. and, when i gave him my access pass, he persuaded me to stay on. seriously, i felt so sad that i think tears was on the corner of my eyes. Thank God team leader (jennifer) wasnt on duty or i would have cried. she is the nicest person on earth. and she didnt know about my resignation at all. when she checked her email, she called me straight away! tink it was 10.30pm liao. she asked if i had any difficulty or problems and why i suddely quit when i was doing well and earning good money through the commissions (the commission is seriously alot). how she treated me so precious as a team member and i even planned to work full shift starting this week. seriously i miss it all so much. and those dudes over at starhub too. how we laugh and poke fun at each other. and take obscene videos together. and where we were called in for a round of naggings and warnings when we were chatting and watching tv instead of calling. how i miss those times. she persuaded me to stay on and gave me an hour to think through, she said, if i were to just say that i want to stay on, my resignation letter would be rejected and thrown into the bin right away. she even reserved the personal headset for me that's worth 200 over bucks.


know what, this is the FIRST time i feel so sad leaving a job. when i ended my vacation jobs with tti, i didnt felt this sad. eventhough i like them alot, i wasnt this sad. now, leaving starhub made me so.... i duno. i dont have the motivation to work anymore. i'm scared i slacken while work starts over at tti.


tmr will be my only day of slacking considering the fact that i was out almost the whole day today to do my passport and get some stuffs. i hope all goes well on wed and i would be motivated to work.











cny holidays is coming to and end. and i think i've put on weight which is no good can? thursday ate alot i think. cos i felt so full that it was difficult to go to bed. but then again, i realise i didnt eat my lunch and dinner. hahaha. oh, i had supper over at swensens. the finale celebration of my dad's bday! he cut his cake at 12.01am. hahaha! we're kiasu and were laughing away cos of some stuffs. hahaa!


then friday. which is like 2 hours ago, i had a beautiful sumptuous meal. and the spread was really good. and i'm feeling so full now again. hahaha! this is so bad rite? and everyone is like saying, forget about losing weight, just eat. after cny then worry. omg! haha.


so, tmr i will stay at home i guess. unless somebody comes over or invite us over. haha. i have to do my report which is due on monday!!! that's the only work i'm left with. then i'm teaching on sunday. haha


and it's time to say goodbye to the holidays! back to reality again on monday. which will be my last week over at ocbc! i cant wait for my last day then i can relax liao! but, an unforseeable future intimidates me. :(


right after i blogged about not seeing and regretting my actions towards kuku. i ended up seeing him the next day. i was shocked. how funny could this be when he doesnt even noe my blog and he doesnt read blog. interesting


i think my sister doesnt look like me now. haha







it's been long lone while since i last blogged. and cny is coming which means.. fat season? hahaha! anyway, many things happened recently that i dont even know what to blog about.







attachment is coming to an end soon which marks the end of my misery. seriously, now i dont even know what i should do after attachment. all i know is i'll be slacking for the whole of feb and maybe praying and seeking on what i should do. i regretted not working harder during the early poly days. now, i have to worry if my gpa allows me to get into uni. if i cant get in, then what do i do? work? work seems boring. the only fun part is the 2 hours lunch break where i have a bunch of peeps to entertain me! haha.








i've lost contact with kuku. lost as in totally lost. i'm still doing fine with that, thou it was hard at the beginning. i'm glad i took the biggest step of completely ignoring when actually i treasure the memories. but then again, a part of me regretted it so much as i've lost a precious fren who was there for me all the while. a fren that completely knows my every move and intentions. a fren that was willing to go the extra mile. i even kind of spoilt his hard disk yet he just thought of it as a tiny little problem. now, it feels like i duno him anymore. friends come and go, do they?

starhub is cool now. so, it's even harder for me to quit when i kept saying i want to quit. the people are nice. good frens. good companions. good laughter during working hours. sales rate have been good which means good money for me. yet, i realise all my cash are like gone. they ran away from me i guess. haha!

changes changes and more changes. like i said, i hate changes. but i guess, God has the best plan for everything in our lives! the kids are good. and i have so many things i wana do for God in this new beginning. thank God for the many blessings, how we prayed, and there, the prayer was answered. how we worry, and there, our worries are gone. event coming up soon, and it's so gona be enjoyable!

i've got no mood to do my final report. and wanted to sleep at 9.30pm, yet i was lazing infront of the computer. how silly can this be? i wish i dont have to go work tmr. hope the time pass fast tmr and soon, the holidays!