band band band band band band band.. hiyz.. wad have u all done mann? where have all your confidence go to? where have all the potential that we once saw in you went to? where are ur responsibilities? where is the trust that we once have in you? where are all your strengths? where? tell me where? do you want everyone to be upset than you all happy? do u like the teachers to flare up? do u like all the teachers to go then u happy? we dun ask for ur gratitude.. we just ask that u cooperate.. where is the band that i once lurve b4 i leave? the band where wonderful memories were made.. where is it?

went back to band.. disappointed.. not bcos ms tan and ms tay disappointed then i disappointed.. but.. the leaders.. part of it.. was my choice.. i have confidence in them.. but yesterday.. sad.. totally sad.. only one word.. and that is sad.. well.. really sad.. cos.. u all didn't put in ur effort.. didn't put in ur maximum effort.. at all..

well.. people.. wake up.. u dun know that u all will have more difficulties if your 2 teachers are gone.. wake up will u all? u all duno the circumstances if u all continue to be like that.. please.. i beg all of u.. T&T.. we need u..

know that after all this happenings.. some are sad.. while others are still not "moved".. like a rock like that.. but.. i got a few words to say to some of u.. the rest of the memebers, i just hope that u all will work well with the 3 gays.. yah.. i'm unable to write here cos i dun think the rest will visit my blog yeah?

Shu Ai: after wad u have said today, hiyz.. i duno wad to say to u also.. but.. i wana tell u that, you got to know and put behind that u are no longer in peixin band.. u are now in yssb.. we all noe it is difficult for u to adapt and change from a gold band to a kena sai band.. i know.. u know and we all know.. nobody is bias against u.. we all care for u.. somtimes, somethings, u cant see it just like that.. i mean.. u duno wad is happening st the back.. well.. i hope that u will just try to enjoy urself in band.. cos.. u are also impt to the band.. and again, no1 is bias towards u.. anything just clarify with me.. eventhough i noe i'm not that good.. but.. i can still help u... just want to know that we care for u.. and that we lurve u.. cos u are also part of us.. got it?

yi yin: read your blog just only.. it's bcos of u that's why i write a note to some of u.. i noe u have been thru all those attitudes from the sec 1s.. we face that too.. but, i wana remind u is that.. no matter what shit they scold u, dun scold them back.. think b4 u say anything.. cos u are suppose to set a good example too.. then also.. if only one person in the band understand what hualun is trying to tell u people.. then wad's the point? 1 out of 60? yah.. i just hope that u all wun collapse.. u noe.. ever since i so called of graduated, when i go back to band, the feeling is totally different.. u noe.. the lurve.. is gone.. yah.. totally gone.. every1 of u all have change.. or rather, the band as a whole have changed completely.. yah.. dun wana continue liao.. but.. yah.. the ex-seniors leave will give u all a chance to be independant.. to think like an adult.. we cant always be there for u to lead on us for support.. we only can be there for u.. at the back of u all.. to carry u all when u all are down.. got it? yah.. we care for all of u.. that's why sometimes ms tan thinks that we are protecting u all.. protecting u people from all the scoldings.. well.. i also duno lah.. but.. i just hope that every1 in the band will really wake up and know what is really really going on and going to happen.. we, the so called outsiders are scared for u all.. truthfully, i dun even wana see the circumstances if all of u all dun wake up and put in your effort.. everytime, we go back to the band, all of the faces only show one word on their face.. and that is :"sian".. i also duno mann.. i think that should be all lah..

Mohan & Mark: now.. u guys are the acting head QM.. alot of things for u all to do.. we trust that u all have the confidence to do it.. please dun let any1 of down.. please.. and yah.. do a good job.. i noe it's tough.. that u all are only sec 2s and have to do all this.. but.. have confidence in urself.. cos we see the potential in u.. we see the strength in u all.. and yah.. do a good job.

Mei Fen: my darling.. u just got this post as a secretary.. it maybe easy or difficult.. i duno.. budden, any problems u faced with the juniors, tell the bm/dm.. if they cannot do anything, then tell the 2 teachers.. they will help u.. i know that u dun like them shouting at u.. but.. u gotta be an example of a leader k.. well.. i hope that u will build up on ur confidence and be able to lead the band in some way or another.. be it in your section or welfare com.. have the faith in u.. anything, i'm still there for u.. okie, my dear?

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sickening.. tomorrow will be a day that i go to school just for test.. got emaths test, history test, chinese test, poa test,chemistry test.. stupid lor.. totally no rest.. had photo taking today.. it was held in the carpark of all places.. so damn hot.. like i in suana like that.. now.. so tired..

some things happen recently.. so tired of it.. sick of it.. just hope that everything will be back to normal again..  hopefully i'll live each day to the fullest with no regrets.. and that my life will be brighter....................................

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efficient? what does it mean? am i one? does it apply to me? i think not.. oldies.. i'm not worth your applause for being that efficient.. enjoyed the time with u all.. helping u all.. but, i'm not as efficient as u are.. not as capable as u are.. cos i just sucks..

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got back my pos test the other day.. obviously didn't do well.. today test again.. sure won't do well.. not that i'm pessimistic.. but.. everytime when i do the assignments, i can.. once the test comes, i'm like.... blank all the way.. i can even forget to put the most impt thing in the account too.. pathetic mann.. fail fail fail.. everything also fail.. duno sit wad stupid 'o' level lah.. then.. tmr still got the stupid emaths test.. plus chemistry.. dun wana fail again.. hiyz..

just now photostated a cross-stitch book form Chris.. very nice.. haha.. but i'm sure it will cost a bomb if i'm going to do it lor.. sian.. spend a lot recently.. gotta save mann..

hiyz.. i'm sick and tired of school mann.. so sian.. so thankful that i received ths mail.. from my "mother", peiyi.. really made me realised that i shldn't be complaining.. but just start treasuring things from now on b4 it's gone.. here it goes..

Everyday when you return from your school, whether or not it is from a secondary school, a junior collage, a polytechnic, or ITE, you would probably think that school sucks.

All that work and torture under your lecturer's or teacher's homework or assignments, or tutorials...

But think about this, i mean really think. All the time spent with your classmates, all the laughter, sorrows, and happiness of knowing that your friends are there in your class.

Now imagine them gone, perhaps part of them or even all of them. You may not realise it, but when advancing into the next level of education, it is inevitable that some friends will be parting with you.

What is all this you ask yourself, what I ask is of you to think, for those who received this mail, what do those people who were once or were still your classmates and friends meant to you.

Anyone who has at least finished their o levels and has graduated from respective schools would know the feeling of parting with your classmates and friends.

Not knowing when you still see them again.

Perhaps the next day, the next week, month, years, or even decade. Perhaps one day, you would realised how bitter sweet those memories were, the fun you had with your classmates and friends.

That is why ever so often when you asked someone which is the most fond memories they had in their years in education, they would often have that sadness in their eyes, but yet, they smile briefly.

It's the memories of their school friends. Those unforgettable years of laughter and happiness in school.

Each classmate had suffered under the same stresses in school. The teachers, whether they are kind or extremely strict.

So treasure your schooling days, don't complain, because you never know when you will miss them dearly. And perhaps, shed a tear for those treasured times in your youth.

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well.. went to church just now.. the stage is set up for the eternity drama liao.. yah.. got the tickets also.. sian.. now.. blogging.. also got nothing to say.. wana sleep liao.. so tired lor..
 
went to have lunch at AMK again.. ate the ice kacang.. a big plate of it.. $3 leh.. meant to share among 6 people.. haha.. of cos i share lah.. din ate it all by myself.. haha.. here's how it looks..
 
tata..
 
 
i will update photos of my classmates the next entry.. cos now too tired liao.. and very sian oso.. wana watch movie.. but.. ... ... .. ... ... ...
 
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haha.. finally my pics are all small size liao.. not so big.. haha..
 
went to school today.. amaths remedial.. i hate to go school just for like 1 1/2 hour.. like stupid like that.. well.. then after that went home.. and like stuck to the computet till now.. that's long rite? haha.. first time i'm online for so long lor.. and my eyes are hurting.. haha.. actually, suppose to study.. cos wana do well for the coming amaths test mah.. haha.. but.. sian.. dun have the moon lor..
 
hmm.. my pos test.. maybe on monday giving back.. haha.. wait mr vilau start "singing" again.. sure do badly one.. cos i forgotten to add in alot of details.. wassup mann.. everytime test i will like kena stunned.. then all forget.. at this rate, o level wad shit huh? haha..
 
this few days.. so sian.. nothing to do.. actually.. there's many things i can do.. like study, study and more study.. but.. so tired.. so sian.. just cant sit down and concentrate.. cos home mah.. my home is the nicest place.. haha.. full of warmth.. that's why once i come home, only feel like sleeping.. like pig like that ah.. haha..
 
well.. this are some pics.. may be a little lame.. but u cant blame me lah.. cos i'm bored mann.. that's why took all this silly pics and upload it.. haha.. and.. yah.. dun say i haolian hor.. is just wad boredom can make me do.. haha
 
my boots.. shinny rite? haha.. can u see the spark? isit hurting ur eyes? haha -_-"

 
service award.. given by Ms Tan & Ms Tay.. nice?

 
my colours award from school

 
drum major badge.. haha.. qualified okie.. haha..

 
lame huh? but that's my name.. and on the left, definitely not my butt.. my butt not so small.. haha..

 
the wrapper use to wrap Ms Tan & Ms Tay's gifts.. look very nice.. but too bad.. i'm not a good photographer.. that's why the pic doesn't catch ur attention.. it's pink in colour..

 
the gifts Jing and I gave to all the band members and ex-seniors.. nice rite? u jealous?hehe

 


this is special.. for the 2 teachers.. 

 
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phew.. came home not long ago.. mann.. had a fun time.. went to band.. seems like sir still thinks that we are still in band.. haha.. duno leh.. then ms tan started of like nag.. "why u still come ah? o levels liao.. so free ah.. everyday come to band.." anyway, she exaggerate lah.. i never everyday go band wad.. hehe.. just that today too unusual.. cos reach home like 1pm.. then i was like.. wad can i do? sleep again? haha.. then yah.. during band, the feeling diff liao.. duno how to describe.. but it's totally diff from the time when i used to be in band.. the times i had b4 2004 speech day.. sigh.. the feeling is gone liao.. sigh.. wad to do?
 
after band, went out for dinner with cherlyn, yiyin, meifen, georgina,shu ai,  jing jing, amalina, syazwani and amira..  at long john silver.. fun and exciting..  meifen kept laughing like siao zhabo.. haha.. then we took some photos.. when arnd to see some pens and stuffs.. yup.. then shu ai also gave me a photo frame.. tks huh, gurl.. haha..
 
then we took photos like siao like that.. took at a void deck.. then duno how to set timer.. in the end, 1 malay uncle came to help us.. hehe.. then after that went to playground.. haha.. the photos we took a little lame lah.. haha.. but nice.. updating it next week mann.. well.. for now, this are some of the photos taken during speech day.. some onli.. lazy to post all up here.. hehe  
   
my clarinetist.. but the guy on the left plays the oboe.. 

 
united we stand.. hehe

 
why are we waiting.. why are we waiting.. why are we waiting..

 
so sad.. parting with this bad.. look at the sad faces

 
the graduates

 
my favourite pic.. Mr Jin, our VP, is in the middle..

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hmm.. going back to band later.. haha.. kinda excited mann.. haha.. well.. havent been updating for a long time.. but.. in school, the mood dun seems like my o levels are coming.. u noe why? cos we like keep watching video and stuffs.. chinese lessons.. it's like the whole of this week we were watching the chinese movie.. to me, it seems boring lah.. haha.. then history lesson.. at first watch some china thingy.. so boring.. everyone ended up sleeping instead.. then ms wong change.. let us watch the rise of hitler.. oh my.. hitler is so short.. haha.. nvm, that's not the point.. but, the movie is interesting.. at least better than the chinese.. haha.. next week, continuing the hitler show.. does this sound like some post- exams activities to you? haha.. sad to say that mann.. the atmosphere is too relax liao.. haha.. k, will update more later.. going to band soon.. will update the photos too!
 
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Well.. finally had the time to update mann.. many things have happen recently.. haha..

10 July 2004 Speech Day

wow.. this was the last day that I was in band as a member and a drum major mann.. haha.. sad lor.. my heart is like broken into 2.. difficult to update to another lifestyle where band would not be part of my weekly activities.. haha.. this year’s speech day.. dun have the exciting kinda atmosphere,, very sian and like quiet.. played our usual songs.. well.. last time holding my clarinet.. nvm.. will still be coming back after my o levels lor.. thinking back.. I’ve like spend 3 years plus in this band.. went thru a lot.. from a fool to a DM.. though it’s nothing fantastic.. but the memories.. phew.. amazing.. and yah.. amazing.. got many scoldings.. from different kind people.. well.. it has allowed me to be better in the things that I do.. thought sometimes what I do is still like shit.. but I’ve tried my very best.. well.. back to speech day.. after the performance.. kept everything.. then we had our speech.. ms tan said some things first.. gave us our trophies.. haha.. will upload the photo for u all to see the next time.. well.. so touched by her actions.. then we had our speech.. jing jing started toking.. then followed by me.. ms tan cried.. I’m kinda hurt to see that she is hurt.. haha.. but I cant do anything.. giving her a hug will in turn make me cry lor.. but I gotta maintain.. dun wan the band to see me cry on my last day/.. kept crapping around.. so that people will laugh.. and then I wun cry.. then gave each of them a little token.. seems nice to me.. hopefully the band members appreciate them lor.. yah.. then ms tan cried.. I feel so sad.. haha.. like leaving something which is so damn important to me..

well.. then went for the bbq.. was a farewell party.. a little tired.. yet had much fun.. had games.. then run like mad.. until my leg is like going to break any moment.. but….. sad.. we only played the first part of the game.. the second part was like taken off,, kinda disappointed again.. well.. we still have a chance..

well.. band members.. if u are reading this, God Bless you.. cos I got a word for all of u.. that day.. u all were so tired.. so didn’t have the chance to fully say what I wanted to say,, though I regretted a little.. but nvm.. here it goes :

for this pass 3 years plus.. being in the band is one of my hobbies.. and I have not treated u well enough, I’m sorry.. I have done my best.. sorry that when I took drills during the band camp, my drill was like shit.. but.. I have done my best.. sorry that when I conduct, u all cannot rely on my conducting skills.. sorry that I’m unable to pass down anything to all of u.. but.. I wan u people to know that what I have done is my best.. hope that my sacrifices I’ve made for the band is worthwhile.. though sometimes I noe I really let u people down, I’m truly sorry for that.. I hope that as u continue to be part of the band, treasure ur time.. treasure the people.. respect the leaders at present cos each of them have some pride too! I noe that u guys have tried to cooperate and help me.. thank u for that! Though most of the time u people really made me angry.. well.. pls make the lives of the leaders easy.. dun give them any trouble.. and respect ms tan.. she’s a good teacher.. a very good one.. treasure her,. And love her.. that includes ms tay too! They have done a lot for all of u too! I hope my words have not gone down the drain.. think about it.. if any one of you were to bully my 2 precious darling teachers, watch out ah! Haha.. yah.. and.. me.. ur DM.. will always be there for u all.. if anything happens.. u need help, I’m still here for u.. dun be upset.. cos I’m still alive.. dun cry.. cos u all will break my heart too! Take care people.. and dun let us down for the coming SYF.. "Victory will go to the one who does not quit!" take care.. love u people..


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it's sunday.. went for 10.30 service.. then went to AMK with my family for lunch and at the same time got some stuffs that i need..

met jing jing at 5pm.. to continue searching for the bstuffs that we need to complete our shopping list.. well.. then we bought wadever we need to buy.. do wadever we need to do.. hope the the people will aappreciate it mann.. and hope things will turn out the way i expect it to.. well.. had lost of laughter just now.. all jing jing's fault.. haha.. jing jing, if u are reading this, i'm putting the blame on u again! haha..

had a chat with peiyi.. realise that the ex-seniors won't be going for the speech day.. cos they need to do the bbq things like buying fish early in the morning.. and then they also duno wad to do when we are performing.. well.. that implies that jing jing and me have to change our plans again..

heeX.. tmr public holiday.. i'm still a teen.. cos my age is sixteen.. there's the word 'teen' being the six.. haha.. so.. holiday.. means that i can sleep later.. wahahaha..

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phew.. the chinese o level listening is over.. the next obstacle.. big obstacle is my chinese oral.. i guess everyone knows my chinese standard lah.. and the way i speak.. wow liao.. it's on tuesday somemore.. a little nervous.. for others, oral will help them pull up their marks.. but mine.. no no... it pulls my overall down tremendously.. somemore is other school teachers taking me.. they are not so.. like not so..generous in giving me marks.. haha.. anyway, will just try my best.. listening today was broadcast by one of the mediacorp radio station.. Symphony 92.4Fm.. keep playing some songs.. make me almost sleep ah.. somemore held in one of the class rooms that have air-con mann.. hopefully can do well for that..

hmm.. monday will be a holiday for me.. gotta complete all my homework and also hand in 3 of my files.. wow.. a whole list of things for me to do lor.. sian..


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hiyz.. my class got some internal conflict lor.. sian.. 125 mol against us, the Hap Fam or also known as 'Area'.. well.. actually it's just a small little thing.. den we din say anything liao.. but then they suddenly come and say us.. sad to see this.. last year of secondary school already.. can't compromise and accomodate like how the swiss(social studies book 4) do meh? annie just said that ms chua was bias.. then the wana try to protect ms chua? or wad? i duno.. but this kind of small little matter.. we can forget.. but they come and add fuel to the fire.. somemore dare to say we poor.. come and compare lah.. see who more rich.. come and compare lah.. see who more clever.. just wana have peace.. somemore class fun-shot pic put wad united always.. always tok bout having unity.. yet they dun do it.. but.. i really hope that this can be solve lor.. sick rite? it's just such a small small small small small small matter.. so gei kao.. maybe is ms chua fault.. maybe it's our fault.. but i think everyone is at fault.. though we have little fault in it.. hiyz.. very disappointed..

had speech day rehersal today.. as predicted, two words to describe the whole process 'messed up'.. hiyz.. cos they din follow our plan.. din follow the time given for them to report.. this is my band.. dilly darelly kind of people.. haha.. all like tai tai and ah pek like that.. haha.. then when we were in jiemin doing our rehersal.. the one for prize-giving.. ms ng came up to me "shermaine, can help me take out this paper-clip" hahahaha.. i was laughing like an insane paper.. the paper clip stuck on her hair until entagle so many strands.. look so stupid lor.. haha.. yah.. that's it..

this 2 photos is one of my band teacher in charge.. ms jacqueline tan.. haha.. she's nice.. if u noe her well.. hehe..



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quite a while since i last blogged.. had been rather busy lately.. first was to complete all the holiday assignment.. then hand in some of our subject files.. then.. next week.. can say like whole week test lor.. sian mann..

haha.. had physics lesson today.. forgotten to bring all my physics thing.. tot that it's new notes.. in the end is not.. haha.. then ms ng ask who did not bring.. then so many people raise up their hand.. [sec 4 still like that.. sad ah] then i told her, we copy down lor.. haha.. she look so fierce wor.. but after school.. she still smile smile.. say me thick skin cos i still dare to laugh.. but at least i wasn't as petty as some people she was saying bout.. heeX.. thick skin better rite? haha.. then saw the wedding photo she took with Ah Kiang.. heeX.. annie told her that oone of the pics, her Ah Kiang look like Arthur.. one of the sec 4 from last yr.. heex.. and she was like u can forget bout passing your prelims.. no need to take.. definite zero.. haha.. and she shoo us out of the staff room.. haha.. somemore she tell ms tan i didn't bring notes.. tell ms tan for wad? hiyz..

band fund list pin up today.. and, haha.. the band managed to receive some money after making the people embarassed at the sum of money they owe.. heex.. that's a good sign that they are clearing their 'debts'..

tomorrow.. speech day full dress rehersal.. think that it will be a mess for the band.. not that i dun have confidence.. but.. cos everything seems so last minute lor.. then wear full uniform.. duno wana go the prize giving thing not.. cos so hot yet still have to sit on the floor.. then we like just go and practise shaking hand and practice how to bow.. stupid? well.. that's my school..

k.. gotta go.. tomorrow still got emaths test.. gotta do well.. even for next week's amaths test.. gotta do well.. dun wan mrs phua to keep saying and saying..

uploaded some of the Lot 1 performance pic.. the rest.. is with ms tan.. hiyz..  


 

 

 



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